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哈！我终于可以在FRIENDSTER里写华语了！真的太高兴了！自从高中毕业后，我已经有一段很长很长很长的时间没写华语了搞到文法都退步了不少.  提起高中， 我还蛮怀念那时爱捣蛋，顽皮的我， 高中同学， 宿室里的猪朋狗友， 飞禽走兽动物园（三鸟一猪, 当然我不是那只猪。。。哈哈。。另有其人）等等~~~ 真的令人怀念及了.

或许我是不应该一直怀念与沉淹在我的回忆世界里吧，因为那已是一种过去式。 上一两个星期， 我和一群高中同学在STAION ONE 喝茶。 我们一直互相述说各人的近况， 废话连篇。。。很高兴！！！ 那种感觉就像以前高中一起学习的时候， 聚在一起的时候。。。很久都没这种感觉了！！！

当我们谈到以前的时候， 朋友劝说我不应该一直回想以前因为每个人都随着环境改变着， 人不可能一直停留在一个点。 我也赞成他的说法！ 每个人都一直在改变着（包括我在内可是却比不上他们）， 不再像以前一般的孩子气了， 思想和看法也都不同了。听了这番话后， 我真的觉得他们真的长大了！！！ 然而我还是那个点。。。 一直坚持中学的生活永远都是我向往的。。。 无忧的生活。。。

当然小学也有我最快乐的回忆，可是童年却不比中学时期般快乐因为爸妈不常在身边陪伴我们生活的每一 点滴。。。 为了我们一家的生活过好一点他们把我们交给姑姑和婆婆， 爷爷照顾。 恩， 他们很疼我们可是常想起爸妈在远方为生计打帡时却常会有一种想哭的感觉尤其接听爸妈来电的时候更是一发不可收拾的大哭起来。这种生活一直持续到中学时期， 爸妈决定把我们从乡村带到KL 读书。 可是我却被他们安排到巴生的一间独中就学和住宿舍。。。再一次的失望了。。。可是这却令我学会如何独立，而且认识了一群投缘的朋友。。。 一起上学， 准备考试， 讨论功课，一起吃饭， 一起睡觉， 一起排队冲凉， 一起洗衣， 一起私自外出， 一起补习。。。。 

可是， 在这同时我也很想念从小带大我的姑姑， 爷爷， 婆婆和一群可说是青梅竹马的朋友。。。 。。。 。。。 很想像 以前般每天都可以看到他们。。。 一起幻想以后的我们。。。 吃喝玩乐。。。人就是一种不知足的动物了。。。想三得四。。。。 对吗？

我想我还是觉得回忆的世界还是比较适合我因为小时的欢笑永远是最快乐， 单纯的。。。

What a bad morning today!!! A bad day with a bad mood!!! I am feel angry of everything that happened on this morning!!! Someone scratch a "nice" logo on my car, my sport shoes was steal by someone!!! This morning really is going to killing me!!! I am really can’t accept all the bad things came to me on a morning… … …

I called and told my mom all about these bad incidents when I am arrived office. I am telling true that I am very very very angry, especially my car was scratched by someone. A question keep on jumping up into my mind "Did I do something bad to someone before?", I am really don’t understand how come some person likes to get trouble without anything happened around, too peace or what???!!! Maybe as my mom said that "This incident could be happen to anyone of us as long as we are still staying in an apartment, even through it has employed lot securities guard."

Crazy!!!! What is the point to pay for the maintenance charges!!!??? We are paying more than RM150++ every month to the management and intend to get a peaceful and safety living environment only. Is it very hard to have it? What’s wrong for the management? What’s wrong for the security guard? Do they take their job responsibility?

I am realized that many new faces showing up in my living place as a security guard this few days. Whereby, the management change a new security system? Hire more quality guard members??!!!??? All new things running without any announcement???!!! Any Notice???!!!

Maybe the management plan to do better and improve on those weaknesses parts on their previous job hence CHANGED a new organization in order to create a quality living environment for us, but it doesn’t work at all. What I meant that is only contribute to more problems and more weaknesses… … …

What am I plan to do for this? Nothing… … … Just plan to visit SMARTSHOP looks for a product for my car that recommend by my friend- Mr. Edward  Ong Ong Ong ^..*

P/S: Edward, If the product is not working…. pay me back the money huh…… kakakaka….

Previously, I am always wish I will get sick in one day but it is never come true as my wish. I am beg you will ask me why? In my mind, I am always think sick may help me loss weight and loss fat.  But now, I am regretted because my dream came true and I am having fewer + flue+ caught few days ago. I am feel happy when I sense some virus working up in my body because I have long time ago didn’t get sick and I think this is a good time for me to loss my weight and fat but it is never work at all.

I am feel head dizzy all the time, what can I do for it right now? Take medicinal all the time until recover my sick ya. Of course, I am having 2 days MC leaves to rest at home but I am feel bored… What I did for my 2 days MC leaves? Sleeping until 12pm almost, eating MEE, taking medicinal, watching ASTRO, gaming (Mapling), checking email, calculate my monthly expenditures, reading news paper and reading comic. Maybe you will think I have no life but what to do for a patient?

I can tell something, I am feel like to write my daily life in my blog on this 2 days. Maybe I am too bored on this 2 days or maybe I would like to share my life with my friends over here… … …

Thanks god!!! I will start my job again on tomorrow even through I am still sick but at least I won’t feel bored tomorrow… … …

Recently, I am learning for human being from my daily life. Maybe different societies will meet different kind of people or maybe each of humans character developed is depends on what kind of environment they are living.

This few months, I’ve met a kind of people that I am very hate in my life (maybe some-more I haven’t meet yet)! A man which talking in rude with a gangster attitudes and RUDE driver!!! For me, I am very hate this kind of person even-through sometimes I am a rude talker with my friend but I would not rude likes them!!!! According to my analysis, this kind of person may think they will looks special to have this kind of attitudes and to get more attentions in any where. In my mind, they are just act likes a stupid, idiot, and rubbish in this world. Maybe my description a bit over but I am just telling true of what am I thinking about.

I’ve discuss of this topic to my uncles many times ago and they are agree with me also. Sometimes, I am really don’t know what is the mind of gangster. Acting special? More attention from viewers? Get Fight? Am I right?

I have two stories would like to share here. I met a rude and "0" minded driver on this morning with my brother. Why I am called him "0" minded (abnormal)? The story started when I am on my way to office, I am listening FM radio and suddenly a car keep on hornning behind of my car (He should be knew many cars are jamming on the road). At that time, I don’t feel anything for the horn because people are rushing to work with the terrible jam. Finally, the stupid driver cut off his position in front of me and showed me his finger with a rude meaning which is FCUK. If let’s said you have a good minded, you won’t do that at all. SO childish right? I think he may working in a same area with me because he dried a same direction with me. Meanwhile, I will take note of this rude drive in future because this driver should be a idiot better leave him far away from me.

Another story, it is happened between my brother and my neighbor. Firstly, I admitted is our fault to park the car in a reservation parking. It is nearly to mid-night, I am ready to sleep on my bed. A knocking sound coming from the door with hardly but i am ignored it because my dad will do that when he forget to bring his keys along, I planned to open the door until i get a call from my dad. A few seconds, the knocking sound still remaining and becoming a bit hard (It’s likes gangster attitude). My mom, sister and brothers all woke up because of the knocking sound. I saw a man standing in my front door with an anger face (looks want to kill us).

Me: "Yes sir, anything I can help you?"

G: "Did you realized that you car in a wrong parking?" (Talking with a rude way and show me his "special" attitudes)

Me: "Oh sorry ya!!! Because I through that parking does not has owner. Hmmmm, I am park my car to outside now ya, very sorry!!) (Actually I was suggested my mom to park her car there because I am realized that the parking is empty long time ago)

G: "What do you meant no owner? My car was in accident and had a repairing in previous months ago and I am just collected my car from factory." (I am feel want to slap him because his rude attitude and talking style)

Me: "Sorry!!!"

My bro asking me who is knocking the door very hard since it is mid-night and the door sound was woke up all of them.

G: "What you are talking about? Your car is park in my parking now!!! Repeat what you have said just now, if you are dare!!!" (If you saw him, you will feel want to fight with him because I feel it)

I am feel surprise that my brother ask me pass the car key to him and he open the door (As the gangster requested).

G: "Do you dare to repeat what you had said just now?"

My brother did it.

G: "Do you dare to fight?" (I think the gangster wants to show his power to us)

The fight started because of the gangster needs someone massage for him! If I am not a girl, I will punch his face and fight with him because I hate this kind of person. (you may think I am the same character with him? NO, I won’t easier fight with person at least the person did what I hate and over angry)

Luckier 2 guards along the gangster come to my house if not I scare the fight will be honorable!  And 2 more guards come along to solve the fight because it is very hard to control with only 2 guards.

Eventhrought the fight is under control and solved but the gangster talk a lots of rude words such as "xxx your mom"… Truly, I am feel want to slap him because he is not respect my mom! What is the heal!!! Is it necessary to talk like this rude words because of parking???!!! Idiot minded!!! What if I talk to him with the same words? But I won’t as I know the idiot will do something and this kind of bad relationship will be never end.

The most funny thing happened, the gangster asked my brother said sorry to him and he keep on saying "I also need people respect!!!"… Hmmmm…. He is also know what is called "Respect?" If he is really know it, he won’t talk "xxxx your mom"!!! Respect, this word is not suitable out from his month…. Surely, my brother don’t feel want to said sorry because he has not wrong for this case. Fight is requested by the gangster and all the things just only acting by the gangster only…. The only thing we did wrong is parking issue.

For me, I am really cannot control my emotion with this kind of rude person but what to do? I cannot do anything… I just only can keep on telling myself this kind of person have no life even through they are surviving in this world but they are just "0" value of their life and this social, and they will get recycle in future.

Dear All,

Good day!!! Due to the previous U.S. economy issues, I found an acticle from Business Week is about an economic analysis review of labor market by a repoter as below.

"The U.S. Economy may not be as weak as it looks. While real gross domestic product, the popular gauge of economic growth, is slumping, another measure of economic activity called gross domestic income (GDI) remain strong. it could be a sign that real GDP is understating growth.

The economy as measured by GDP, including expenditures on all goods and services and changes in inventories, expanded in the first quater by 2.1% from the previous year. For all of 2006, GDP grew 3.3%. Meanwhile, real GDI which includes wages and corporate profits was up 3.9% in 2006. First-quarter figures won;t come out unitl the end of May but personal income data over the first three months of 2007 already show an acceleration in wages and salaries which makes up about half of all GDI.

In theory, GDP and GDI should be equal. These two taillies of economic activity are akin to double entry accounting where outlays and receipts balance out. In reality, deficiencies in data collection mean the numbers often diverge. For example, quarterly GDP figures are initially based on monthly survey data from the Census Bureau that may not provide a thorough measure of output while Labor Dept figures used for early estimates of wages do not include bonuses and stock options says Carol Moylan, Cheif of the National Income & Wealth Div. at the Bureau of Economic Analysis.

It’s possible that GDI is giving a better picture of economic growth. A more complete accounting of economic activity covering the past three years is due out in late July. That’s when the BEA releases its annual revisions using Internal Revenue Services figures and more comprehensive annual Census Bureau data.

If real GDP growth is revised upward, that could help solve the puzzle as to why the labor market continues to look tight. Such an outcome would most likely keep the Federal Reserve focused on potential inflation pressures and help quell any remaining concern surrounding the health of the economy. 

Reporter: James Mehring

Surely, you are welcome to publish your own reviews/ comments on my blog for those readers gain more economic knowledge.

Regards,

Nicole

Yeah!!! BABA result was released on last week!!! Thanks God!!! No one fail on this final and almost all of BABA course mate are collect a good result even through we are unable to get first class honors (Too high expectation???) but at least it is under second class honors is good for us.

I have been working almost 3 months on one of a Japaneses Company and my contract is going to end on this month. I am confusing to make decision to look for other job or to work on a same company? Of course, you should recommend me to stay right? As the labor market in Malaysia is not good as previously so that many employee won’t easier to leave their current position. But I am very tired to drive almost 1 hour to reach office and 1 hour more drive back to home everyday, especially when it is traffic jam or accident happened. Friends, it is really killing me ya!!! 

I am facing traffic jam from Puchong to Mid-Valley City everyday, some more I have to pay for RM6 parking fees daily!!! For parking fees, I have to spend RM 120 per month plus petrol RM10 per day… For me, it is really a grant amount for me to spend every month!!! Why don’t I take bus to work daily? It is really a good question to ask. It was my plan before but I never try it lastly because the passengers on the bus make me feel terrible. The bus driver does not mind how full of the passengers they are fetching due to provide "training" for thefts with this "messy" environment, they just only caring to earn more money as much more passengers taking they are fetching.

As the conclusion, I would like to take rest in 1 or 2 weeks after my contract finish (If no available position offer to me in my current company) and I will try to get a job as marketing executive or Admin in Puchong or near by Puchong as well as not much traffic jam happen and not to face much traffic jam everyday ya….

Finally, my result was released on previouse days!!! I am really very surprise of my result because it is better than my expected, cheer!!! But, I feel I am going to lose a friendship which was almost 10 years because of the trustable problem.

I am not sure of my action that I was did for her is correct or incorrect, but I am reliase that friend can be easier to lost in anytime. I just only can make decision on what I sense and problem issue for you only, I am not 100% surely confirm to settle the problem for you. 

Firstly, I am not a representer by God to help you to solve any troubles because I do not have any power allocated by God to play any magic around your world to protect you as a baby in my heart. Secondary, friend is only can be sharing your sadness, happinies when you are down, they are not supposed to support your trouble and do affect their current mood in their life. Thirdly, my dear friend-DT please try to share your current situation with your family because friends are not able to help you in sometime, family is always be your big supporter in your life whatever you are down or happy.

They are always will stand by for you,whatever on a bad or good weather. Hope you will understand my advise for you and please do hope this happened won’t be a gap between of us…    

Happy? Unhappy? Whatever what I feel it, I am still need to look something to get survive on this world!!!

If possible, I am prefer to be happy everyday! However I am trying to hide my emotion but it is still appear on my face everyday… … …

Truly, I am a stupid!!! How do I can always did mistakes on job? Even the simple scope also can’t make it well… Sometimes I really feel loss, no confidence, not dare to have eye contact with my colleague because I feel myself like a loser on company, even simple thing also can’t make it well…   

Today, I am keep on asking myself "Did I really enjoy on this Chinese New Year?" Definitely, NOT!!! "Did I get ready to step on to social life?" Not!!! I am admiring those are really enjoy on this festival and relaxing their soul…

What I feel on this festival? Just only one word can apply on my soul which is Tired Tired Tired… Why? I also don’t know… Even I was completed my course one month ago but I’m still feeling tired, wanna to sleep and hide on my bed as long as I am alive on this world. But I can’t do it because I’m going to start to work on this coming Monday.

I wish to do whatever I like to be before start to work so that I can concentrate on my job responsibility. I planned to spend my whole day on Galaxy to sing KTV but no one company me because of financial problems. I also planned to go clubbing tonight but…. …. …. Someone told me that If I go clubbing, I may bring trouble to him because he is responsibility to take care of me, to protect me. Am I? I am only drink COKE on clubbing, so how am I going to drunk? I am able to keep my mind clearness and understand what am I doing…

I really feel sad when heard that… please do not treat me as a child because I’m an adult and I known to protect myself and learning to keep away from trouble now… Maybe you are right but I just feel myself as a trouble in your life only… is it?

I feel scare to face to my family and myself everyday!!! I hate myself that never ever treasure the studying opportunity provided by my parent! Just always act like to enjoy in watching TV, and Gaming only after class.

I heard from my course friend that almost whole classmate did very bad and nearly to fail on the "Strategy" exam. By true, I didn’t prepare well on that exam so that I can’t blame anyone. When I heard this news, I am nearly become crazy and feel scare to face to my family and hate myself very much!!!

Everyday I try to hide myself on the bed and try not to face anyone because of that news, I feel less confidence to do any thing and unable to produce a quality task also. It is look like darkless and hopeless on this world….

I’m trying to be an outgoing person but I can’t because I am too understand my character that I will drop on the night life and always clubbing or do something else to hurt my family and myself. Finally, what I did? I just always hide at home for gaming, watching drama again again and again….

I admire my course friends can enjoy and relax their life after completed the program, but I didn’t. Before that, I was planned to enjoy it but I broke my plan lastly because I scare do not get a job and be a member on the unemployment in Malaysia. And, my dad always push me to get a job, I am feel hard to breath when I saw my dad. Somemore, I received a bad news from my course mate… feel stresses and hopeless on my future now….